you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Sunday, January 03, 2010
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2:12 PM
its last day of hols! believed that everyone really dreaded for this day. cause after today. live's gonna change. the surrounding is gonna change. the people, the voice, the attitude.... blah blah.
i'm pretty annoyed and upset with people nowadays. maybe it is them who's changing and probably its me. i dont know. really. i hope i could find an answer to it.
i keep wondering.what happened to those days when friends are forever and when promises were real? when everything is just so perfect. but i can't say perfect. it is just fine. yup. now it is all screwed. ahhhh. really saddoh. but i can't do anything about it. it isn't up to me.
i keep trying but i think it got worse or sth. everything isn't working for me loh. like seriously.
idk what happened. but all i'm gonna say. i give up. i know there are ups and downs in life, you cant help it. but ever tried and experienced all downs? consecutively? it suck sucks sucks. i'm sick and tired of doing everything initiatively.i'm gonna pretend it's not hurting me, quit acting like i'm all right and stop faking a smile. cause it is hurting my face, my heart and myself. faking is what hypocrites do right? yeah. i'm gonna stop being one. don't worry. i'm not harming you all all these while i'm just being a hyprocrite to myself. i'm gonna stop lying to myself.
idk what to say le. mood off. maybe i should just concentrate on school mates instead of religous mates ba after all these years of tremendous effoorts put in, what did i get? at least sch mates cared. they give me comforts(some la). hope everything is better in new class. that is all i hoped. i'm pinning all my hopes on it.please please please. let my life be better. let everything end with 2009.
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after years of trying, what i get is;
a broken heart. an empty mind and withered soul
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i'm gone; so long
