you told me you loved me
why did you leave me, all alone
now you tell me you need me
im already gone.
Thursday, March 12, 2009
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7:50 PM
haish... feeling much much better after a cry. :| but eyes are very puffy. :\ it was like very very long ever since i cried :| the feeling was okay. and normally i dun cry unless necessary.:X i was very very sad. and i hate people saying and gossiping about things i din do and i feel that is right. really cannot take it anymore. the pressure and expectation given. :| thus i cried. and my father actually suggested that i should change a new school environment. :| ooh wells. i said i couldn't give my frens up!!!!! i will sure be very sad. :| haish! and blah blah blah. haish...i also dunnno what happened to me, my change of attitude? my life? my way of talking to people? everything! i am just too tired to bother about it. not that i dun wanna bother. i find it tiring. everything tires me out. & idk why. life is like an endless stretch of road filled with obstacles and stuffs in your way and you will have to keep walking on and on and you will have to overcome the obstacles to keep moving on.you cant just stop walking cause you will lagg behind and you cant afford to do so. you have not much time left. so you will just have you keep on and on. but i am tired! tired! tired! but the thing is i cannot stop! i will have to keep dragging on, if not i will be left behind. now, worse still, i am supppose to make a choice on which way to go. but i dare not! i always regret my decisions. (so you know why i dun like to make decision :|) which? WHICH? i really dunnno. its sec 2 already and time flies so fast. i am going to make an imp decision which determines my future. haish. i am always so hesitant and i hate it. but what can i do? :| i wish to think of nothing now but i cant! there are always things bothering me. now worse still, first time encountering so many obstacles and setbacks. the feeling is too overwhelming for me. the theses and thats. haish. people are toturing me mentally but they din realise. ooh wells. maybe i should just take the setbacks one by one making me trip and fall once and again. i am so wounded and hurt. haish. i wish to talk no more. i should try to take it all by myself and bear with it;all of them. just hope that i can take it. ooh no, i am gonna cry again. :|
this is what XL showed me today:
Love; it can make you smile for the rest of your life, but it can also make you cry for the rest of your life.Yet why are we always taking the risk, and even plunge further into the river of love when we know we are going to drown in sorrow? Maybe this is the power of love. I will be contented, even with two hours of tears alone, just for that one second of kiss with you.
that was quite random :X
i shall end here.
&&i must find the strength to move on.
i'm gone; so long
